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Fiddling around!

For the last few days, I am having difficulty in sleeping at night. Like an owl I am awake until sun rise. During one such night, I was fiddling around with my loops. I mixed and matched , and this is the end result! This took me not more than 60 minutes! Somehow, I love the fiddle part as it reminds me of Irish and their lovely dance! By far this is one of my fav creations!!

Listen and do leave me your feedback!


Why would you do that to me?

Sometimes love can be cruel, very cruel. My inspiration for this song/ poem is from a sad love story that left the girl dead!  Read here for more information.

I am at the park sitting on the bench

Looking at the lovers kissing and caressing

Your thoughts came gushing, pushing old memories

I hold my tears but weeps inside helplessly

If not for your false pride,

We would have made it thru’ the tide

Rerunning our past in black and white

A foreseen wretched playwright!

You flirt with my innocence

And I failed to notice the incoherence

Confusion and treasons you create

The unnoticed love’s tailgates

Like the falling withered leaves

someday my memories will cease

I’ll learn to sail on my own

And learn to manure thru’ the currents

I’ll set out anyway to conquer thee

‘coz we were never meant to be

You’ll no longer be remembered

Nor those words will linger!

I am the one to blame!

I composed the song. Here is the lyrics for the song…

Walking in the dark

And sloshing thru’ every puddle on the way

I recall the day when everything went astray

I was on the street accepting my defeat!

I walked home all alone in the rain,

And all my cries,  all in vain

I’m over whelmed with pain and shame

I knew I’m the only one to blame

You called me on my phone

And spoke to me only when I was alone

You called me out on a date for 3 nights straight!

Sitting under the stars, we spoke from the hearts!

We were at our best, just being you and I

We were helplessly, hopelessly falling in love!

We were just being you and I!!

We were just fine, until

I faced some problems of mine

I called out for help;

For A safe place for me and for my whelp!

You weren’t happy with the new place

You  came home with a grim face

I always wondered why you had your helmet on

I did not realize then you were the boogieman!

Look, what I did to you was wrong

I was messed up in the head

I was only trying to look for the man who got lost

I was all over you; I was totally in to you!

I know I killed you with my talk; 

But how far I would go to bring you back?

You lived in a world all alone

With broken heart and rendered opinions

As memories stain, and later pain

I wage war in silence with nothing to gain

I know, I love you but not the way I used to

No more words to scar the soul

No more fights to make you understand

No more words that will split your heart in to two

No more tears to shed, no more crying all alone….

My Mother My strength!

Years ago, on a cold early December morning, my mum slipped in to eternal sleep. I miss her every single day and this poem is a small dedication to the woman who is the strongest of anyone I have ever known.  I love you Loads MUM and MISS you terribly.

Before the sun raise

I wake up to the cries

Trying to figure out

What life is all about?

I sit beside my bed

Plan to move ahead

But stare the empty walls instead

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

I walk in the empty room

With a heart that consume

Pain & emptiness, tears & sadness

I’m left with loneliness

To survive in this darkness

All I want is you just you

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

You slipped into eternal sleep

A well-planned heaven’s trip

Sanity left to lurch

And the insanity lynch

All I ask for is you

And to be in your company too

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

Life in this world has no girth

You or I not immune to death

I live here to die another day

You died to live everyday

I wish to see you soon

Hope god grants me this boon

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

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