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A mayhem warrior, Tsunami!

I was heart broken, and very sad by the events as it unfolded in front of my eyes. Tsunami hit Japan almost a year ago, killing more than 10,000 people and countless animals, it also destroyed everything in its path! Watching things perish was very disheartening to say the least. I tried to bring nature’s fury through this composition of mine.

Shout out to all the survivors of Tsunami!!! May God Bless us all!!

Visual courtesy: RT (Russian times)


Romance through the Radio!

Long ago, in early 2000s I was a final year student at St. Joseph’s college of Arts and Science, Bangalore. No, I was not a bright student, and this is not even about my college :P. We had recently moved to our then unfinished campus on Lavelle Road. Just behind our campus was the offices of  the popular Radio Station, Radiocity 91.1 FM. It was the first FM radio station in Bangalore, and they played real music. Unlike today, where cellphones are in abundance, back then it was just pager systems, and small portable FM transistors. Affluent kids in the college carried both, while the rest carried a transistor. It was a popular youth accessory for the young lads and lass alike. In college, we hardly saw anyone with cell phone. It was a no-cellphone era where cellphones did not crawl in to our  classrooms while teachers, who pretended to teach, and pupil, who pretended to learn. 😛  We were really connecting well without the help of any social networking sites, we were very content with the things we had. Listening to Radio City was the common and popular activity we all indulged in!

Radiocity played both English and Kannada songs; English mostly. Only during Sundays between 7 a.m-11a.m there was a show called ‘chow-chow bath” in Kannada, hosted by a, witty, hot & sexy, and too down to earth RJ, Chaitanya Hegde. He had mesmerizing voice that reflected both respect and love for his listeners.  Listening to his show was a popular entertainment for me, he really knew how to keep his audience engaged. Even before, I knew I had fallen for the lad. I probably had the biggest crush on him so far. So, one fine day my friend and I went to meet him after our college. When we met him at his office, he was getting ready for one of his evening shows, and the first sight took my breath away! He had a  physique that matched the voice. My girl friend was busy talking to him about his job, while i shamelessly stared at him and blushed now and then. ‘You’re a greek god!’  I said. That was enough for me to grab his attention. He gave me a look and I melted away like an ice cream.  We were getting late, and he was hurring to host his evening show. So, we had to end our conversation and left.

I was smitten by him, asked my sisters to write letters on my behalf  ( was bad at English, Cliché?), sent numerous texts to his shows, sent flowers (red roses and red carnations) to him, sent gifts. All of a sudden it felt as if I was living in  a perfect world, where everyone liked & loved everyone else! Once, I even heard a fellow RJ make fun of him. She referred my name on his show and he was blushing like a baby! That became one of my favorite memories of growing up. One day, he  was gone, leaving a huge dent in my world! That broke my heart, I cried my heart out for  many days together and it really ached inside. I never knew where he went. I called the host who replaced him, he said he was in a different Radio Station, world Space and refused to give any other information. You got to have a special unit and subscription to listen to world space. World space units were expensive then, and I had just started working.  I was solely acting on impulse and was being spontaneous, as his thought was kindling excitement fire in me.  I consoled myself believing this is all part of adolescence, part and parcel of growing up!  That is how my romance withered away 😐

My Mother My strength!

Years ago, on a cold early December morning, my mum slipped in to eternal sleep. I miss her every single day and this poem is a small dedication to the woman who is the strongest of anyone I have ever known.  I love you Loads MUM and MISS you terribly.

Before the sun raise

I wake up to the cries

Trying to figure out

What life is all about?

I sit beside my bed

Plan to move ahead

But stare the empty walls instead

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

I walk in the empty room

With a heart that consume

Pain & emptiness, tears & sadness

I’m left with loneliness

To survive in this darkness

All I want is you just you

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

You slipped into eternal sleep

A well-planned heaven’s trip

Sanity left to lurch

And the insanity lynch

All I ask for is you

And to be in your company too

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

Life in this world has no girth

You or I not immune to death

I live here to die another day

You died to live everyday

I wish to see you soon

Hope god grants me this boon

Without you by my side,

Mamma, I am going nowhere

Cancer Awareness

last stage of Breast Cancer. Photo courtesy

Recently, I under went a painful biopsy to determine if there are any cancer cells present in my uterus.  Uterus lining is thick, and my gynecologist wants to be sure that it is not cause of the benign cells. Other than thick lining, I’ve sever symptoms of PCOS   that prompted my doctor for a Biopsy.  My mother lost her battle to cancer 8 years back, she had 2nd stage Lymphoma. Lymphoma is one of the deadliest cancers with minuscule percentile of surviving rate, unfortunately my mum was not one of them.  Endometrial Cancer, is a cancer that starts in the endometrium, the inner lining of the uterus (womb). Lack of my knowledge on this type of cancer, prompted me to do a search on the internet.  And I have found a website (Click Here) that explains this cancer in a language that is easily understood, also has informations on different types of cancers.

Cancer is Cancer and is not good for anyone to have it. From my own personal experience, I understand how cancer affects the person and their family. Social networking site is a powerful tool to spread awareness on cancers, however, the recent surge on status messages about cancers have irked me, to say the least. One of the recent messages I received on facebook message inbox read, ‘‘ Support of Breast Cancer Awareness!! So we all remember last year’s game of writing your bra color as your status? Or the way we like to have our handbag handy?   Last year, so many people took part that it made national news and the constant updating of status reminded everyone why we’re doing this and helped raise awareness!! Do NOT tell any males what the mean…keep them guessing!! And please copy and paste (in a message) this to all your female friends! It’s time to confuse the men again (not that it’s really that hard to do ;);) The idea is to choose the month you were born and the day you were born. Pass this on to the GIRLS ONLY and let’s see how far it reaches around. The last one about the bra went around all over the world. Your status should say: “I am going to________________for___________ months.” Use your birth month for the place you’ll live. January–Mexico February– London March–Miami April–Dominican Republic May–France June– St Petersburg July–AustriaAugust–Germany September–New York October–Amsterdam November– Las Vegas December– Columbia Use the day you were born for how many months you will live there. Write a reply to all…and have fun, ladies!! ”

This is a mockery to all the brave warriors who fought and fighting Breast cancers. Let say, If i am going to Las Vegas for 23 moths, how does this raise awareness? I don’t understand a bit. Also,   writing my bra color increase the awareness on Brest cancer?  Really?  Writing ones bra color as a status message is more like a perverts idea, than awareness. When there is a cancer in the breast/s it is amputated! Unlike developed nations, where insurance covers the cosmetic surgery in reconstructing the breast, many poor women simply live with out it.  Most of them don’t even wear bras and are often fall in to depression. Also, some men have it too, how is that for a real awareness? All I ask is be cognizant before you put up some stupid  status message in the name of Awareness. If you want to bring awareness do it in the right way, indulge in a sensible conversation with your pals. Put up status that speaks of the risk factor of different types of cancers, or what causes these cancer, or discuss the key statistics of  cancers like I learnt today that; About 46,470 new cases of cancer of the body of the uterus (uterine corpus) will be diagnosed. About 8,120 women will die from cancers of the uterine body. Be empathetic and supportive to those who are fighting a war to survive. And please stop entertaining spammers , when you get such a mail in future feel free to mark it as spam.

I wish all the best to people like me who have done their biopsy and is awaiting results, also to those who are facing the battle and embracing lives as it gets; you guys are real role models. I personally believe this is an opportunity to hone my understanding of cancer, and be more appreciative of my life, and people in it.

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